So, we ended up doing the endometrial biopsy. After much prayer, I decided that if God worked out the timing, we would do it. And He did - so we did. I took some extra painkillers and got through it. It sucked in the moment - but it gives me confidence that I am doing everything I can for these last 2 embryos that have been entrusted to us.
I'm also trying acupuncture this time. My RE recommends it so heavily that he offers it free on the day of transfer. (He's really into Eastern Medicine and he has a "healing arts" center with massage, acupuncture and other spa amenities attached to the clinic.) I was hesitant at first, but the more I researched and talked to some people, I feel good about it. A friend of ours pointed out that the tiny needles actually cause micro-injury which brings new blood flow and healing agents to the area. (Hmmm... same idea as the endometrial biopsy!) The Bible has lots to say about new growth coming from pruning or cutting back existing stuff... ... so I decided to embrace that thought, rather than all the other new age-y aspects of acupuncture. Besides, people talk about how relaxing it is - and I'm definitely up for some relaxing. (If nothing else, I lay on a table for an hour and do nothing - how often does that happen?) My first appointment is next Monday and then I'll do it again the day of the transfer. I know they recommend it for weeks ahead of time, but I just don't have time for that!
We are IN our cycle already. I'm taking the Lupron shots and Estrace. The shots are funny - after doing the PIO with the giant needle, the Lupron feels like we're playing with a toy. Those needles are so tiny in comparison. It's actually kinda cute.
My lining check is May 6th and I expect my transfer to be on the 13th - or near there. Like I said, I'm kind of indifferent - we've just had 3 failed cycles in the past year. (1 miscarriage and 2 failed FETs.) On one hand, I really, really hope this cycle gives us another child. But it's hard to hope. I find some hope in the stories of my EA bloggy friends. Jenn - your story is super encouraging in that your 3rd attempt resulted in your beautiful twins. You are totally right - there is no way to predict which embryos will become children. And Tracey, being pregnant with Jenn's kids' siblings - that's actually the 4th transfer from that batch, right? So attempts 3 and 4 brought life to babies? That encourages me. But I'm still afraid to hope. It's hard to explain.
I've already started thinking about the "what if"s. If this fails, we have no more embryos. We will have failed with 2 different donors. Do we keep trying??? Do we look into foster-adoption? Or start the process for international adoption? We've discussed those things before - and we intend to pursue them when our embryo-adopted kids are older (if we're in a better place financially.) I hoped we'd have more than one EA child. I thought we'd be better off financially by now. But Micah keeps reminding me to take things one step at a time. He's right. I know I need to sink my focus into *this* transfer and pray for THESE embryos. So - that's where I'm at. Getting ready for another go at this whole embryo adoption process. Thanks, everyone for your comments and your prayers. I really do feel like I have a great set of friends here in the EA circle!!