We're making baby steps in our progress toward another little one. We had our phone consult with the Dr at a clinic in Florida. He is requiring me to have an SHG since it's been a while since I had my daughter. I got that scheduled for tomorrow - I'm so NOT looking forward to it. I've read that it's a much easier test than the HSG I had when we first did infertility testing - but still.... catheters, dye, ultrasound probes pressing all around... yuck. I might take some anti-anxiety meds that my mom has laying around, just to make the process better. Ultimately, I'm hoping it leads to the next baby - so I'll focus on that. Hopefully, if all looks good, we could choose our embryos and proceed next month!
Which is the next thing: how the heck do I "choose" embryos? The last time, the clinic had some donated and we pretty much said "yep, we'll take 'em." This time, I have a dozen profiles to look through. It just feels weird to think that we're choosing our next child - and not choosing all the rest. What criteria is important? The doctor told us that younger eggs make better embryos, so obviously that's a consideration. (Race is not important to us; I carried an Indian embryo till 6 weeks and was devastated to miscarry.) But what about medical history? In one profile, the male had an aneurysm. That's not genetic, right? That shouldn't affect my decision, should it? In another, the couple tested positive for chlamydia - again, not a genetic issue, so I shouldn't care - but I think I do. The profiles disclose previous pregnancies. One had a 'spontaneous' pregnancy, but it doesn't say if any children resulted from this IVF batch. Can I assume that if they didn't get pregnant with the embryos, that I might not either? Or maybe the embryos are fine, but it was something in her body that prevented implantation. Who knows?
I'm finding it *more* difficult to have this info. I think I'd rather have someone say "here, these embryos need a family - do you want them?" Who wants to pick my next child for me?
I'm still following all of you, even though I don't post. I'm super excited for Tracy (and Jenn/Aaron) and Diane & Em and praying for Jess and Liz and Paula. (Is it ok to through out other bloggers names in my blog post?) If nothing else, this blog gives me a chronicle of our journey. I'm sure my blogging will pick up once things start moving a little more quickly. For now, it's one step at a time!